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Urge to kill...rising.
Sep. 7th, 2007 01:15 pmI'm totally starting to freak out about all the stuff that isn't done for the wedding. It's only five weeks away, and well, I'm not going to bore you with a list but a ton of shit isn't done. I feel like sobbing about it because most of it is out of my hands...it's frustrating me to the point of madness. If I didn't have drug issues I'd be getting myself some Xanax or Valium or any of that other shit housewives take to chill out. I always stress before a party, and this is the biggest and most important party of my life. I've been planning this thing for a year and it feels like nothing is done.
There's the unpleasant matter of the shower. For some reason I have to clean my house, bake, shop, make hors d'ouvres and deal with assorted madness and people all fucking weekend. I didn't even WANT a shower, and now the people who insisted on throwing one for me don't have the time or inclination to actually do anything for it. Ain't that a kick in the teeth? I'm sure it will be fine once people arrive and the games are underway, but right now I'm just a big bag of stress about it.
I really, really don't want to go to work today. But I can't call off since a) we're busy and b) I need the money. We have to pay for the cake soon, which is a dastardly $400. I still can't believe I'm paying that much for a damn cake. I was going to do the cakes myself until I saw some Bridezilla losing her damn mind trying to make enough cakes for a wedding. Everybody better tell me how much they love that cake or I'm going to be very sad.
Still haven't decided what I'm going to do about catering. My caterer, as I've mentioned, is an alcoholic who keeps relapsing (read: going on 3-day benders that require 3 more days of recovery and tapering off). If I fire her, she's going to be crushed. But dammit, it's my wedding and I shouldn't have to worry whether I'll have no food for my guests because some people can't control themselves. I know I'm the last person to talk about self control, but dammit, my issues don't spill out all over everyone I know or threaten to ruin anyone's wedding. I want to just call the Greek restaurant and have them cater. But that's my last resort plan if the caterer doesn't work out.
Haven't reserved any hotel rooms because I have no idea who is coming in from out of town, except H's family. RSVP's aren't due until the end of this month, so hopefully I'll know then. I suspect that most of my college buddies won't be coming, but I don't really know. Our budget is so tiny that I really need to know who all is coming, but I hear that most people don't bother to RSVP anyway. Do you assume that people who don't RSVP aren't coming? I imagine that's what I'll do. At least there'll be extra cake.
So maybe I am turning into a Bridezilla. I just want shit to go right, since it's costing us most of our savings just to put on this thing. I wish my MOH was closer, we'd be getting our drink on right about now.
Wow. I feel much better after getting all that out.
There's the unpleasant matter of the shower. For some reason I have to clean my house, bake, shop, make hors d'ouvres and deal with assorted madness and people all fucking weekend. I didn't even WANT a shower, and now the people who insisted on throwing one for me don't have the time or inclination to actually do anything for it. Ain't that a kick in the teeth? I'm sure it will be fine once people arrive and the games are underway, but right now I'm just a big bag of stress about it.
I really, really don't want to go to work today. But I can't call off since a) we're busy and b) I need the money. We have to pay for the cake soon, which is a dastardly $400. I still can't believe I'm paying that much for a damn cake. I was going to do the cakes myself until I saw some Bridezilla losing her damn mind trying to make enough cakes for a wedding. Everybody better tell me how much they love that cake or I'm going to be very sad.
Still haven't decided what I'm going to do about catering. My caterer, as I've mentioned, is an alcoholic who keeps relapsing (read: going on 3-day benders that require 3 more days of recovery and tapering off). If I fire her, she's going to be crushed. But dammit, it's my wedding and I shouldn't have to worry whether I'll have no food for my guests because some people can't control themselves. I know I'm the last person to talk about self control, but dammit, my issues don't spill out all over everyone I know or threaten to ruin anyone's wedding. I want to just call the Greek restaurant and have them cater. But that's my last resort plan if the caterer doesn't work out.
Haven't reserved any hotel rooms because I have no idea who is coming in from out of town, except H's family. RSVP's aren't due until the end of this month, so hopefully I'll know then. I suspect that most of my college buddies won't be coming, but I don't really know. Our budget is so tiny that I really need to know who all is coming, but I hear that most people don't bother to RSVP anyway. Do you assume that people who don't RSVP aren't coming? I imagine that's what I'll do. At least there'll be extra cake.
So maybe I am turning into a Bridezilla. I just want shit to go right, since it's costing us most of our savings just to put on this thing. I wish my MOH was closer, we'd be getting our drink on right about now.
Wow. I feel much better after getting all that out.
