Dead: Old Dirty Bastard, Linguo, Arafat, Disco, God,

Tonights new Simpsons was not very funny. Ironically, watching Fresh Prince of BelAire reruns was more enjoyable. I felt like watching a comedy, then I remembered Crazy People was just loaned out over the weekend. No matter of course, I have many splendid comedies in my collection.

I re edited chapter 12 so it sounded a tad less like it was written by some kind of stoned maniac. I'm going to try and get thru 13 and 14 by Weds night, since I'm back at the shelter then and won't be able to get anything done for two whole nights. I'm also going to be there thanksgiving night, mostly so I won't feel bummed about not having anyone to spend the holiday with. H will most likely be at work, and everyone else will be taking the time to show off how much they are liked by thier stupid families. You'd think people could show some fucking empathy. At the same time, you'd think I'd be over feeling shitty about this whole thing after almost 10 years of being away.

I'm feeling really depressed about things again. I've never been not working on my birthday before...honest. Not since I was 16 and got my first real job. I hate not having any money, I hate not having somewhere to go, I hate feeling trapped in this crowded-ass apartment and having to be up in the middle of the night just to have some time to do what I want.
Plus, my Bed and Breakfast idea is a good one. Which makes it even more frustrating to know that I could never get it off the ground. Nice to know I have no prospects whatsoever for a good future before I'm even 35. It's actually a really common trait in serial killers to be intelligent and creative, but to float around to a string of meanningless jobs and never feel appreciated for anything. I can see how that goes, because if I were just a bit more of a sociopath, and maybe a touch more motivated...actually I've changed my mind about finishing that sentence.

Maybe when the moon comes back, I'll feel better.

Accio Job!

We're going to the grocery store in a little while. Then we'll have food in the house that wasn't delivered by a stranger. Plus I'm making some of my famous chili tonight. When I have my bed and breakfast, it will be one of my signature brunch dishes. You'll be able to get it with a side of fried polenta. We'll be mixing it up like that...

I have also been seeking to deal with some minor annoyances in life, those few that are actually in my control. I called the DM for Wendy's to complain about my biggie drink with no soda syrup, and my chicken planks that were old and had no sauce. They charge a dollar apeice for those freakin' things, so I was bummed when they gave me some that had been sitting around for like, a week. Plus when I called to tell them they were out of syrup (it was a Seirra Mist, so you couldn't tell by looking) they told me to come in and they'd give me another one, then hung up. Good plan, but I of course, don't have a car. So I'm getting some coupons from them.

Plus I sent an emial to the post office asking why I'm having such a tough time getting packages. It seems that as predicted, my new mailperson thought the name Wednesday Friday was made up. Even though the packages that come for my roomate under the guise of "Monkey and a Typewriter productions" are totally normal and beleivable to him. What a maroon! Anyway, I'm feeling slightly empowered just because I'm tackling some smallish things and taking some wee little victories where I can. Going to try to write two more chapters tonight and tomorrow. This is suposed to be a much easier week for NaNo. We shall see...week three here I go! Plus, I'm thinking I may do NaNoWriYe if I can come up with a schedule by January. I'd kind of like to stay in the groove of productivity I've discovered. It's fun, plus maybe one in five things I write won't be utter crap. Unless I take up romance novels, which i may, I hear it's an easy business to break into.

I watched Harry Potter and SS this morning to try and put myself in a good mood. I can't wait to watch the 3rd movie a zillion times at home.
I've only seen it once, you know.