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I've returned. What'd I miss?
May. 18th, 2009 02:34 pmWent out of town this past weekend. Got a bit of writing done, about a chapter and a half. Have a bit more work to do on the novel, of course, but as I keep saying it's moving right along. I'm working a short day tomorrow, then off on Weds so it should be easy for me to get lots written this week.
Lately I've been thinking about relationships and how I need to be better at setting limits and determining where my boundaries are. I've been feeling quite taken advantage of lately with one thing or another. I also think I've been putting up with far too much nonsense and shenanigans--the kind of stuff that leaves me feeling angry, frustrated, or depressed. As such, I'm making some moves to cut those influences out of my life.
I guess part of it is that I am "surprised" when I get treated in a disrespectful manner by people, mainly because I'm a pretty good kid and am pretty respectful in most situations. So I'm baffled when someone treats me like a maid, a cash-machine, or some kind of personal assistant--especially when the people in question aren't doing shit to help themselves or better their own situation. I want to be helpful and be a good friend, but not at the cost of my own emotional well-being. Point is, I shouldn't be surprised, because none of this is new news.
Myself, I grew up with lots of interesting problems and issues. As I grew older, I spent over 10 years trying to get a proper diagnosis, proper meds, and therapy that would actually help me recognize some things and be a better person. It's a long struggle but I'm pleased for the most part with where it has all gone. So it really galls me when people don't want to do any of the emotional work and just expect everyone else to rearrange their lives to accommodate someone who patently refuses to examine their own behavior. Okay, end rant.
I've been downloading some Season Five eps of LOST. Now I can see The Smoke Monster let Ben live whenever I want. Sweet! I'm also going to watch the Season Five Finale 20 or 30 times until I understand exactly how Ben got so duped. Poor Ben, he has such a terrible time of things. It seems that like most people, all Ben really wants is to be valued. No matter what he does, he can't get the validation he's so sure he deserves. Sad.
Now I have a whole bunch of Michael Emerson on my iPod. 6 Practice eps, 7 LOST eps, and an audiobook of Four Blind Mice which he co-narrates. There's another book on tape he reads but I can't find it for free and I certainly can't afford it right now.
Lately I've been thinking about relationships and how I need to be better at setting limits and determining where my boundaries are. I've been feeling quite taken advantage of lately with one thing or another. I also think I've been putting up with far too much nonsense and shenanigans--the kind of stuff that leaves me feeling angry, frustrated, or depressed. As such, I'm making some moves to cut those influences out of my life.
I guess part of it is that I am "surprised" when I get treated in a disrespectful manner by people, mainly because I'm a pretty good kid and am pretty respectful in most situations. So I'm baffled when someone treats me like a maid, a cash-machine, or some kind of personal assistant--especially when the people in question aren't doing shit to help themselves or better their own situation. I want to be helpful and be a good friend, but not at the cost of my own emotional well-being. Point is, I shouldn't be surprised, because none of this is new news.
Myself, I grew up with lots of interesting problems and issues. As I grew older, I spent over 10 years trying to get a proper diagnosis, proper meds, and therapy that would actually help me recognize some things and be a better person. It's a long struggle but I'm pleased for the most part with where it has all gone. So it really galls me when people don't want to do any of the emotional work and just expect everyone else to rearrange their lives to accommodate someone who patently refuses to examine their own behavior. Okay, end rant.
I've been downloading some Season Five eps of LOST. Now I can see The Smoke Monster let Ben live whenever I want. Sweet! I'm also going to watch the Season Five Finale 20 or 30 times until I understand exactly how Ben got so duped. Poor Ben, he has such a terrible time of things. It seems that like most people, all Ben really wants is to be valued. No matter what he does, he can't get the validation he's so sure he deserves. Sad.
Now I have a whole bunch of Michael Emerson on my iPod. 6 Practice eps, 7 LOST eps, and an audiobook of Four Blind Mice which he co-narrates. There's another book on tape he reads but I can't find it for free and I certainly can't afford it right now.
