Events Leading up to My Death:

Holy Crap, again with these fucking docs wanting to crack my head open. I think they are exaggerating. I think they must be overlooking a zillion other options that don't involve works like "open" and "head".

AND, I ran out of meds this weekend because the stupid nurse forgot to call my stupid scrip to the stupid pharmacy (actually, they are great at the pharmacy). It was very stupid. So that has been disasterous in terms of overall calmness and that whole thing where I control my ability to freak out. English? I've been freaking out all weekend and still now. Tomorrow I will see the doc yet again and get my meds so I can take them again.

Sorry to ramble on about boring crap, but as I may have mentioned, its freaking me out.

Jiggety Gig (Home again Home again)

So I am back from my consult with the doc. I thought they were going to do all kinds of more Xrays and crap...but no. It seems that once again I am freaking out over nothing and could stand to just fucking relax a bit. They are not going to compromise the integrity of my skull...which is good.

This new doc had the nerve to imply that I was exaggerating my headaches to get pain pills. Okay, I guess that's not so outlandish, but I wasn't actually doing that. At least the dentist who wanted to break my jaw to get at a back tooth said I could have good pain pills when he did it. Of course, I never went back to that guy. Why do people really think you'll pay to break thier bones because they went to medical school?

Anyway, for those of you wondering why I haven't been answering your E-mails, it's a combination of busy-ness, freaking out, and just plain not being able to deal right now. I'll be back into it soon enough...
And as always, thank others of you for your support.

Odd...

I have no recollection of this:


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I watched the Ted Bundy movie today. man, that thing is DARK. Violent, distrubing...very hands on. better beginning than ending, they kind of got carried away with themselves by the end. but the lead guy was quite good.

Also, the flatbread chicken sammiches at McD's are good too.