Hmmmm.

[wednes]

What is it about the holidays that makes people focus on the negative???



I swear to the gods, this is the only time of year I really, really care about not seeing my family anymore.
Okay, that's probably not true. But it's a fucking drag sometimes.

On the other side, I have a ton of things to be grateful for. And I almost feel like I don't deserve any of it if I can't be thankful and focus on all the good in my life--there's a lot of it.

You see...my Mom loved Christmas. It was the only time of year you could ever expect her to be nice and in a good mood. She loved giving presents and making cookies...I think because it made her feel like a good mother for a goddamn change. I've come to decide that my mom never meant to be an evil wench, she just had no idea that she was sick and needed to be medicated. It's very sad, really.

Not sure why I'm thinking about this today, but I am.
I also think I'm going to smoke and then make H some waffles.
H loves Alton Brown's recipe for waffles.



Happy Holidays, kids!!

Comments

[madush69.livejournal.com]

Cathy made waffles this morning and it made me think of you. I have a present for you and H. I should have time to drop it off tomorrow.

[wednes.livejournal.com]

Okay, I have gifts for you guys as well.

[squamous.livejournal.com]

Happy Holidays to you too.

[wednes.livejournal.com]

Thanks, man.

[blackthorn45.livejournal.com]

I think that's a huge thing in my life, too. Realizing that my mom never meant to be the way she was. My brother, on the other hand, is just an asshole. :P

Happy Christmas and all that crap! :D

[wednes.livejournal.com]

Back atcha, punk!

[sudrin.livejournal.com]

Its just that Christmas has this unfortunate "If only" aspect to it. If only I had more money I could buy you that ferarri you always wanted, etc. It makes us remember what we CANT do before we get to enjoy what we can. I remember the first Christmas after I moved to Ann Arbor I was dirt poor and I couldn't afford ANYTHING for anyone and it made me so sad. Sure, I knew the Love I had was enough but it didn't FEEL like enough because I knew all the "If onlys". So don't be too hard on yourself if you focus on the negatives occasionally at Christmas. If anything it has the side effect of making you thankful for what you do have. :)

[wednes.livejournal.com]

That's true. I'm also feeling sort of failurey because I can't afford to buy people the things they so richly deserve. So yeah, there's certainly that aspect to it. Combined with the family stuff--I just need to divert my attention a little more firmly than usual. Plus, I keep half hoping I'll hear from Walt; which is pretty much a pipe dream at this point.

Speaking of gifts, I made you another hat since the first one looked sort of snug on your head. I need your addy again though so's I can send it out. H's Fed Ex black out ends soon and we can send stuff wicked cheap.

[gifgal.livejournal.com]

happy holidays to you two's also! :)

[wednes.livejournal.com]

Right back atchoo!

[gifgal.livejournal.com]

gazooooooontite! (orhowever you spell it! lol)

[wednes.livejournal.com]

Actually, it's gesund heicht.
German, you know.

;-]

[gifgal.livejournal.com]

ah cool! ive always wondered that, since i say it all the time!

[trollhagen.livejournal.com]

Actually, it's Gesundheit (meaning good health), innit? Sorry, I'm both an ediotr (oh boy!) and German (booo!) so I just can't help myself. :)

[trollhagen.livejournal.com]

Wish I could say I mis-typed editor on purpose... DOH! ;-)

[wednes.livejournal.com]

Is it all one word?

My uncle is a damn liar.

*goes off to tell him so*

Thanks!!

[trollhagen.livejournal.com]

Yep, one word. Germans like long words, don't they? Ach Du lieber! :)