I don't recall giving anyone permission to die...

[wednes]

I'm in my 40's. I can remember a time when that seemed ridiculously old. I can remember learning that my grandfather was *gasp* 54 and it seemed like the oldest thing in all of time.

Not having kids means I get to continue to live like a teenager in many ways, despite my advanceD decrepitude. And face it, decades of sloth and gluttony have indeed rendered me a bit less jaunty than other peeps my age. I'm working on strength training so I can eventually get into the house of horrors that is Cardio. But yeah, for a 40-something, I feel pretty tired, sore, and old.

That said...I learned today that another friend of mine is dying due to one of those things that people blame on fatness, AND/or "not taking care of yourself." I've not seen this dude in years, so I have no idea what his habits are. But he's a Big Guy, which means there's always some douchebag who will blame bad health on being heavy with absolutely no other facts.

It scares the hell out of me knowing that people my age are dying from this kind of shit. My right foot has been numb, which gives me constant nightmares about doctors coming in to cut it off in the night. My knees are bad, and it's difficult for me to get up off the floor by myself. I'm not ready for LifeAlert or anything, but the very idea that I could fall and take 20 seconds or more to stand back up again? Yikes. Fucking...yikes. I mean, what if I couldn't stand up at all? I can't even imagine.

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[opaqueplanet]

Get that foot checked out. Have a blood test with a PT and APTT (clotting tests) to make sure it's not a thrombus (clot). A DVT (deep vein thrombosis) can break loose and become a pulmonary embolism or stroke or a number of other rare but deadly things. And you can basically rule it out with bloodwork. (They might suggest ultrasound, which is more accurate, but way more expensive, so unless your insurance covers it it's a total cash-grab.)

Please keep in mind it is probably nothing. But it's nothing to ignore, either.

[wednes]

Thanks!
That is being taken under advisement.

[opaqueplanet]

If you are on hormonal birth control, mention that at the appointment. It's sometimes a factor in DVT in women over 35 (or under 35, in the case of a friend of mine, but that's neither here nor there).

[wednes]

Nope, not applicable.