Getting what I wished for:

[wednes]

I've been complaining recently that my intense sanity is making it more difficult to write. I said that not being in touch with my inner nut-job is very much hurting my work. And it's true.

As some of you know, I stopped taking Abilify (a mood stabilizer) recently because we can't afford it. I'm still taking my other anti-crazy pill, so I'm not going to go completely off the deep end. But I tell you, I'm really feeling the crazy these days. I was manic for a week or so, now I'm so depressed I can hardly function. I started sobbing this morning when I couldn't play my brother's voice message on the Xbox. It was absurd.

You'd think all this crazy would be good for the prose. But I can't function well enough to both work and write. Seven and eight hour days on the phones feels like much more than I can handle, and I don't get a day to myself for at least a week. Whine Whine, I know...but I'm not sure how long I'll be able to deal with all this before I start feeling better. I can't both work and write when I'm like this, so working is all I can do since I can't call off or quit my job. I'd like to though...


It was pretty good. Spot-on in terms of visuals, even Veidt's cat was very, very well done. The fights were elongated somewhat, but that's to be expected in a film like this. The sex scene between Laurie and Dan went on for way too long, even though I can appreciate how that develops Dan's character. I wasn't very impressed with the actress who played Laurie. I did enjoy Rorschack evn though he kept doing the Batman voice. Oddly though, I enjoyed watching Adrien Veidt most of all, which was NOT my experience with the novel.
Not really sure why they changed the ending. Didn't care for it, and didn't think it was neccesary to change it. Also didn't like how the discovery that Veidt was behind it all was not all it could be. It's shocking as hell in the novel. In the movie, it was just meh. Comedian being Laurie's father was also kind of glossed over. And I don't remember Manhattan's first girlfriend being such a bitch.
That said, they did some cool things with the movie, the opening montage for example. It was an enjoyable watch, but I didn't love it the way I loved the novel.

Comments

[hellamama.livejournal.com]

Oh, sweetie, that's too bad. I send support and hugs to you. Is there a support group in your area? The one here is really good; maybe you can find one to help. H could go too, to give you support and learn more about helping you (although I know he's already awesome!)

[wednes.livejournal.com]

If this lasts more than another week or so, I'm going to look into getting back into therapy. It's just so frustrating, my psyche meds were all free when I didn't have insurance or a job. This working for a living stuff is for the freakin' birds!!!

I'm hoping this will go away after a while though.

[frogdiva.livejournal.com]

Maybe there's something in the air that is bringing people down (in addition to the decrease in your drugs), because I am feeling very depressed lately, as well. I took Lexapro or Celexa for nearly 5 years and quit about a year and a half ago, but I haven't really felt like I needed it again until just recently. Being in a somewhat new relationship with David, I'm trying my best to stay cheery because I know he's worried and thinks it has to do with him. I just can't fake it anymore. I hope things even out for you soon! :)

We saw Watchmen Friday night, but I knew nothing of it going into the story. David filled me in on the ending that I think you're referencing (how Adrien causes destruction?), and I think I like the movie version best.

I'm nearing the end of A Stabbing For Sadie (it takes me forever because I only read a chapter or two before going to bed), and I've got lots of questions for you, if you're up to it. I just want to finish the book first.

[wednes.livejournal.com]

I think by the middle of March, people will have their SAD in full swing. H is the same way about my mental health issues; he often feels helpless or guilty just because he can't do anything to help me and desperately wants me to feel better. It's a bummer, because then I get to feel guilty as well as depressed. ;-[

In the Watchmen novel, Veidt blames the destruction on aliens, so everyone is united against a common enemy. In the movie, he blames it on Dr Manhattan, which is a total dick move IMHO. But the revelation that it is Veidt that is causing all the mayhem and killed the Comedian (not that I care about that a-hole) is sort of glossed over in the film. Nite Owl and even Rorschack are shocked to learn that it's Veidt.

Question away!! :-]

[madush69.livejournal.com]

I didn't like working there either. I hope you feel better.

[wednes.livejournal.com]

I don't mind the job at all, I just don't feel very capable when I'm depressed. Everything seems too difficult for me and I'm totally off my game.

I imagine I'll be feeling better soon though.
Thanks!!

[diachrony.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry the depression is sucking so bad. It would be great if you didn't have to work and could write instead. Drat!

I will have to see Watchmen on DVD and by then I'll have read the graphic novel - it's all new to me but lots of my friends are familiar with the novel. It's interesting to read the very differing opinions on the movie.

[wednes.livejournal.com]

Indeed, the Watchmen reviews kind of go off in a lot of directions. The consensus seems to be that you'll like it more if you're familiar with the source material, but if you are, you might not liked the altered ending.

[kissdbyagnome.livejournal.com]

Something came across my desk a few weeks ago about helping people in MI get their meds. I'll take a second look at it to see if it might apply to you.

This is late reply so I assume you are doing better, but I'll still revisit it.

[wednes.livejournal.com]

I am indeed, doing better.
But I'd still like to know if there's a cheaper way to get meds!!