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I want to switch off my emotions like Data from Next Gen.
Today has been a total and utter mindfucker.
Was not able to reach the lady at Comcast, plan to get up first thing tomorrow and call.
After making a few calls, it seems that People's Express will help me get one way to work or from work between 9am and 4:30pm.
That should make it so I can take the job if they offer it to me, which I shoudl know soon.
However.
If I take the job I'll have health insurance, which means I won't be eligible for my therapy program. It's only for people who don't have any insurance, and I'm wondering if I can just elect not to have it. That might be easier and less horrible than choosing a new doctor, and a new therapist, and having to forgo group. I know I bitch about group a lot, but I like the ladies there very much and I do get stuff from it.
My computer still isn't back, and so I'm really behind on my writing. I planned to catch up with my flist and my writing tonight.
But then I heard something that so thoroughly put me off my game that I couldn't do another thing but sit and cry for a little while.
You see, I used to work with this amazing woman at Blockbuster. She was one of those super-efficient hard working types. She was black and her hubby was white, so we used to joke about swapping (sorry K and N, you weren't first with that). She had this amazing, super smart son who had been skipped ahead several grades. After leaving Blockbuster, I didn't do a very good job of keeping in touch with many people. Some I did, but most I did not. So when I found out this horrible thing, it was made slightly more horrible by the fact that I didn't find out until over a year after it happened. Now that I recall, she'd had a family history of violence and was working hard to give her son a better life than she had. And she was; her son was awesome.
Cut for being utterly horrible. I'm serious, you might not even want to know.
I am so sad I think I'm going to cry for a bit and then go to bed.
And to think...90 mintues ago I was going to post how crazy sad Smallville was.
Was not able to reach the lady at Comcast, plan to get up first thing tomorrow and call.
After making a few calls, it seems that People's Express will help me get one way to work or from work between 9am and 4:30pm.
That should make it so I can take the job if they offer it to me, which I shoudl know soon.
However.
If I take the job I'll have health insurance, which means I won't be eligible for my therapy program. It's only for people who don't have any insurance, and I'm wondering if I can just elect not to have it. That might be easier and less horrible than choosing a new doctor, and a new therapist, and having to forgo group. I know I bitch about group a lot, but I like the ladies there very much and I do get stuff from it.
My computer still isn't back, and so I'm really behind on my writing. I planned to catch up with my flist and my writing tonight.
But then I heard something that so thoroughly put me off my game that I couldn't do another thing but sit and cry for a little while.
You see, I used to work with this amazing woman at Blockbuster. She was one of those super-efficient hard working types. She was black and her hubby was white, so we used to joke about swapping (sorry K and N, you weren't first with that). She had this amazing, super smart son who had been skipped ahead several grades. After leaving Blockbuster, I didn't do a very good job of keeping in touch with many people. Some I did, but most I did not. So when I found out this horrible thing, it was made slightly more horrible by the fact that I didn't find out until over a year after it happened. Now that I recall, she'd had a family history of violence and was working hard to give her son a better life than she had. And she was; her son was awesome.
Cut for being utterly horrible. I'm serious, you might not even want to know.
I am so sad I think I'm going to cry for a bit and then go to bed.
And to think...90 mintues ago I was going to post how crazy sad Smallville was.
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But In you case it's a little different. First of all this program you are on costs you nothing out of pocket right now. And if you get regular insurance you will have to pay copays and deductibles on you medical care. You probably won't be in a good position to do that for a bit. I recommend staying on the state program for a year or so, and then switching during the next open enrollment.
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I guess I just have to think about it some more; that is if I even get the damn job. I guess it will depend on the awesome power of forgiveness...and cranberry juice.