wednes | TV and Therapy

Well, here I am after a long week of therapy and TV watching.

smarbaby won TV last night, as she has a tendency to do. We shall rematch on Sunday, I always win TV on Sunday!!! It is my hope that

pak_man78 and

lickingtoad will start attending TV night on Sundays again. I miss their bright shining faces.

Speaking of TV, that new episode of LOST was amazing. My mind was officially blown, I felt like I should give ABC $20. hahahahaa...get it? Anyway, I'm having trouble deciding if I should be looking for huge conspiratorial solutions or majickal ones.
Law and Order/SVU were also serving up the crazy this week. I daresay all the important seasons are off to a good start. Only Smallville remains to screw up my wonderful season. My hopes for Smallville aren't as high after last crappy season, but I'll still be watching.

I'm going to try to keep this from being overly verbose. But here goes: the better my life gets and the closer I feel to sanity, sobriety, and gainful employ, the more I think that I am soon to be the victim of a sudden death or terrible illness. It certainly doesn't help that one of the women in my group has Stage 4 cancer. I found out though, that fearing a sudden death, illness or accident is fairly common for people will crazy violent or abuse-filled pasts when they start to get their shit together.

And, my fetching employment counselor guy was going to help me obtain some new clothes to wear to job interviews. I'm also supposed to have a mock interview in 3 weeks. However, none of the places where I can shop for clothes (I get vouchers to use special vendors or some crap) actually has dress clothes in my size. So now I have to tell him this, and I really feel like shit about it all. I'm frustrated, embarassed, and ashamed of myself even though I realize that there is more going on than the fact that I love cheeseburgers. I guess I was not really as together on this whole fat issue than I had orignally assumed. And I still don't have proper clothes for my mock interview, much less a real one.

I am very much looking forward to game night tomorrow. I hope we play some kind of trivia game, because showing off my smartly goodness is always helpful to my self esteeme. I'm also looking forward to finding out about more losers from my past with this delightful tool. Thanks again LJ, you goat bastard. Is it just a coincidence that The Devil is also a goat bastard? I think not.

Also, anyone local who is going to see Corpse Bride on Saturday should please take me with them. I will lend sparkling commentary to the occasion, and I'm very cute.

And...I'm bummed I didn't get to see

lachupacabra. Wherefor art thou,

lachupacabra???

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I do the same thing, only I call it the "I'm going to get hit by a bus any day now" syndrome. Every time I've come through a rough patch (like this summer) I'm convinced that I'm about to die or suffer some other horrible catastrophe. Kinda glad to hear that's a somewhat normal reaction, though.

I was quite surprised to find out how common it is, especially for bi-polar people.

Now I just have to remember to step onto the bus rather than in front of it. ;-}

I'm always waiting for the other shoe to drop, too. You're going to be fine, though.

And don't feel like shit asking for clothes that fit. That's so basic, and the employment people should have vendors to accommodate all sizes of people. You have nothing to be ashamed about.

I guess I know that already. I just can't shake my mothers voice from the back of my head screaming at me that it's all my fault. That's what all that pot was for, and without it, it's much tougher to tune it out.

Hopefully the EMDR stuff will do it's job in time.

I've felt that way too, but you are going to be okay. I promise (For whever that is worth). There was more that I wanted to say, but every time I type it and read it back, it looks like some jerkoff bullshit. So let me just say that i'm hoping it all turns out for you. :-)

I wish you'd stop editing yourself. Your words have more value than you give them credit for.

And thank you.

Yeah, I was impressed by the new Lost as well. Though I thought the flashbacks were almost entirely completely dull.

The fact that they kept showing Rose makes me think she is the chick that will die.

oh girl. i am SO SO SO SORRY.

for one, i fucking set my clock back the night b4 like
a moron cause i thought it was the night to do that.

it wasnt.
:\

it made me an hour late & i missed lunch with my other friend.

then i got my shoulder worked on for about 5 hours.
by the time he was done, it felt like raw hamburger & i was exhausted
plus it was nearly 10 pm & all i could do was pass out. i feel like a total
dick. im going to have to come out again real soon to bring my friend's
computer back & set it up for her so if you dont mind rescheduling, id
still love to meet you.

*cries @ being such a flake*
:(

hey!! im fat too!!
you need an outfit for interviewing?

i wear anywhere between an 18 to a 26/28 depending on
what the item is & what style it is so id be more than happy
to loan you an outfit (altho i do not own a blazer. fuck any
company that expects you to interview in one - altho im
finding that more & more of them do here in MI for less
& less well paying jobs while out in the PNW & the west
& east coasts -NYC & cali- ppl are not expected to dress
so formally anymore).

i can hook you up with a nice skirt & blouse combo.
& will be coming out this week again to set that mac
up for my gf for sure.
:)

ps...one of my friends works for comcast out in A2.
she says you should submit your resume cause they need ppl BAD.
can you do any tech support?

I am going to work out a plan to get the clothes I need from this program. So I don't think I'll need to borrow anything. Thank you so much though!

I'll certainly catch up with Comcast, maybe they'll gank me a little less for cable if I work for them.

less for cable if you work for them?
try FREE PREMIUM DIGITAL CABLE AND FREE INTERNET!!!!!
:D

No shit? I could sure use that.

Good Lord Girl, it's not as serious as all that.

I'm totally down with meeting another day, you just say when.

oh good.
i felt so bad about not even being able to call cause my phone is off.
:\

im not sure what day im coming out but im pretty sure it will be this week.
:)

Cool beans.

Keep me posted.

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