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I had the most delightful candy bar today. Hershey's Nut Lovers is a more creamy than usual chocolate blend with peanuts, almonds, cashews and pecans. It was simply delightful.

Talked to the med doc today, we decided that I'm going to try staying on a low dose of the current meds to see if I can work through the joint pains. I also have to determine if it will help my mood without raising my blood pressure too much. We shall see.

Then I had my regular therapy session. It seems that next week I'll be having my first session to begin a new kind of therapy to deal with past trauma. It's a thing called EMDR or Eye Movement Desensitization Repositioning. It's sort of new and supposed to be very effective. I'm sure I'll talk much more about it when I know more and when I actually start doing it. It's supposed to lessen the hold that past trauma has on my life today. Funny thing about this treatment, it's the first non talk-therapy/non drug/non-electrical therapy that's ever been suggested for me. I've been seeing shrinks since I was 7, and they are just trying this now. Go figure...

Later, was group, which is always a mindfucker. But now that's over for another week.
I really like most of the women in my group, but some of them are lying fucking sociopaths.

I was going to try to stay up late tonight and write, but I have to be up early for the next few days to do pre-party things and to catch up with some people. Plus I have to call maintenance and find out which of my feet they'd like me to put up thier collective asses for not fixing my microwave. I'm hoping it's the right, as I have increased kicking power in my dominant gam.

You're a Tyrannosaurus Rex!

You can't stop talking about the "good old days" of the past. While
you remember everything being so much better and more glorious back then, you've
got to realize that times have changed! It's time to move on, time to bring in
the new technology and advancements! Still, there is some charm to your olden
out-dated ways. Children seem to love you, for example, as do some historians and
scientists. And you should really eat something... your bones are starting to
show.

Take the Animal Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

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I've heard of EMDR! Such a strange idea... and nobody knows why it works? Awesome.

It certainly sounds like it's worth a try. Some people I know have had rather remarkable results with it.

Wow.. it sounds very interesting.

Yeah...at this point I'm certainly going to try anything that sounds reasonable. The technique is highly regarded at the facility I go to, and I trust those women enormously. So I'm going to have my first meeting with the woman who does it, and we're going to do some preliminary interviewing. It's going to suck, having to talk about past trauma for a few sessions; hopfully though it will make some difference in the end.