Dilemma!

[wednes]

What I need to know is: what happens if I get this radio gig I want, and end up going on the air a few days a week...but it turns out that I SUCK! ?

I often do not try new things, out of the crippling fear that my life will culminate with everyone finding out how much I really suck, deep down inside. I would hate that, because then maybe no one would like me, and I'd be lonely.

So should I try for the job? Should I take it if they give it to me? or, is being offered the job its own reward? Why am I such a gutless wonder when it really counts, and outspoken on things that don't really matter? Radio would give me the opportunity to embarass myself in front of lots more people. Do people even listen to the between-song-talking of the DJ anyway? Would I be talking my heart out, only to find that eveyrone changes the channel at the sound of my voice?

Dammit, I don't know what to do...

Comments

[princezna.livejournal.com]

Oh c'mon... you know you'd be good- you are so witty on this LJ- I'm sure that's the case in real life too. You'll be great- what the hell- LEAP!! I mean... what do you have to lose? Who cares if people like you or not. Won't you have a radio name? No one will even know it is you. Also- they won't hire you if you totally suck... so this shouldn't worry you. You'll be great- just be yourself. My friend backfromblonde can give you some pointers- she's been working on the radio for years and years. Do it!!! You know you want to- don't let fear stop you!!! Fear is not real unless you make it so.