happy dude

[wednes]

Sometimes I want to run away where no one knows me or depends on me or worries about me.

I guess part of the responsibility that comes from having freinds who love you is that they worry. But sometimes I feel like I need the time and space to do things that aren't good for me, or to flake out on everyone and live under a bridge or in a cave somewhere. Why can't I just sit in a dark room with am i-pod and some weed and just get my head straight.

I used to like doing LSD every once in awhile. Kind of like emotional house cleaning...it's a good way for me to put things in perspcetive. I need something else in my life that I am not getting.

...more later!

Comments

[boblovesdot.livejournal.com]

I need something I'm not getting either

[wednes.livejournal.com]

Hmmm...

I'm not sure we're on the same page here...

[boblovesdot.livejournal.com]

probably not.. I'm just saying

[brettsyboy.livejournal.com]

doin it?

[wednes.livejournal.com]

Dang it, I'm not talking about sex...I'm talking about excitiment and risk and danger and...okay I guess a little sex wouldn't be bad either.

[finallymyturn.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean by wanting to hide under a rock sometimes. I just shout "No!" and throw a tantrum. That works sometimes. Either that or I do spider man jumps off of really tall objects :)

[wednes.livejournal.com]

That sounds dangerous Anthony!

you should take it easy on your poor mother...

[madush69.livejournal.com]

You want risk? They have it at KayBee for like 8 bucks.

[wednes.livejournal.com]

Oh that's very funny!

[zonereyrie.livejournal.com]

Yeah, having friends who worry about you is a positive and a negative. It keeps me from taking too many crazy risks because I don't want to make my friends stress out, but it has also kept me from killing myself - for the same reason really. I suppose the latter is 'good'.

I used to like to do LSD as well, but I haven't since 1994 or so. Mainly because of the risk in acquiring it - not worth jail time. If I could pop down to the stop for a tab - oh yeah, I'd be doing it periodically.

[savidge.livejournal.com]

For me, LSD used to be a valid form of escapism.
That was until the following episode:
I was in a hotel room with some friends.
Everything seemed ok.
As I was sitting on the bed my feet started to feel wet.
I closed my eyes for a couple seconds, opened them, and realized I was standing knee deep in the surf.
The scene was so unnerving I haven't done it since.
These days I stick with Mr. Kind.

Why can't I just sit in a dark room with am i-pod and some weed and just get my head straight.
yeah, that sounds appealing. =)