Abandoned Mission...
I know I did tell you all I would be writing my review of Minority Report, as several of you have asked for it. However, I don't really feel like it and have been arguing with people all day. I'll do it as soon as I feel like I am focused enough to do a good job.
I went to my doctor who gives me my meds because I am a nut-bar yesterday. I have accepted my nut-bar status, but am getting very sick of hauling my ass all the way out there (okay, Pak_man78 did much of the hauling) to hear them ask the same banal questions and hear my same rehearsed responses. "No, I don't want to kill nayone", "no, I am not suicidal", Yes, of course I excersize, can't you tell?". Of course at CMH, you have to watch what you say around those people; they called the cops on me the first time I went there for saying basically that people who abuse children should be killed. Well, they should.
My boyfriend has been all over my ass lately, as he wants me to give my cats away. Yeah, they mess up the house, and need to get "fixed" so they will stop marking territory. I can see where these things are irritating, but I would think he could see that they are my only company when he is at work 12 hours a damn day. Of course, with no cats, I could grow herbs and aloe again without my poor plants being murdered by playful cats.
The only interview request I have received all week is from a job that I would hate beyond all reason--it involves fast-food managment. I couldn't even get hired by a damn grocery store...I am losing my fucking mind not having a job, so at this point I will take whatever peice of shit I am offered as those student loans don't pay for themselves (not for me anyway).
So I am feeling crappy and sad. I think I will drink now. I always seem to do that more in the summer, and I've been doing it a lot as of late.
I went to my doctor who gives me my meds because I am a nut-bar yesterday. I have accepted my nut-bar status, but am getting very sick of hauling my ass all the way out there (okay, Pak_man78 did much of the hauling) to hear them ask the same banal questions and hear my same rehearsed responses. "No, I don't want to kill nayone", "no, I am not suicidal", Yes, of course I excersize, can't you tell?". Of course at CMH, you have to watch what you say around those people; they called the cops on me the first time I went there for saying basically that people who abuse children should be killed. Well, they should.
My boyfriend has been all over my ass lately, as he wants me to give my cats away. Yeah, they mess up the house, and need to get "fixed" so they will stop marking territory. I can see where these things are irritating, but I would think he could see that they are my only company when he is at work 12 hours a damn day. Of course, with no cats, I could grow herbs and aloe again without my poor plants being murdered by playful cats.
The only interview request I have received all week is from a job that I would hate beyond all reason--it involves fast-food managment. I couldn't even get hired by a damn grocery store...I am losing my fucking mind not having a job, so at this point I will take whatever peice of shit I am offered as those student loans don't pay for themselves (not for me anyway).
So I am feeling crappy and sad. I think I will drink now. I always seem to do that more in the summer, and I've been doing it a lot as of late.

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the problem I have with fast food mgmt is like any retail magmt, which is that peoples whining and bitching about petty, stupid shit...
Well, I have little tolerance for that shit. And the premise that many people assume that you are some kind of dumbass because you have a shitty job. Especially at Blockbuster, to be treated like an idiot by someone there to rent Big Momma's House...
My cats are awesome, both female and black, although one is shiny jet black (shorthair) while the other is a smoky black longhair with white undertones. Damn attractive.
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I usually suggest that if you can't find a job, you volunteer somewhere. Even if you just do it a couple of times a week, or in the mornings, or something...it gets you out of the house and doing something productive, and keeps you from wallowing. I speak from personal experience...bout of major depression, couldn't get a job, felt like shit, life sucked. So I decided that I should just go do something useful, wound up volunteering for Eastside Mental Health as an aide in a class for behaviorally disturbed kids, wound up being hired for pay about three months later, and from that ended up working for the school district for two years running. Pretty good all around.
I'm not suggesting a particular KIND of volunteer work, just whatever floats your boat.
And dear, I know you know this, but drinking is kinda the wrong kind of self-medication, being a depressant and all...try chocolate and strong tea. Much more effective. ;-)
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Volunteer work is a good idea, I don't know why I didn't think of it sooner. I guess I kept thinking I was a few days away from being back to work, then it stretched into a really long time.
Thanks you for your wise words.
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But it okay, because I am watching Tales From the Crypt and it has Adam Ant...
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