Pressure exacerbates most mental and emotional problems.
Gah! Before I got on medication for my anxiety, any sort of stress really messed with me. Not only did it not help that I was not medicated, but also I didn't have the awareness of what clinical anxiety was or how it affected me. On one hand, I realize that being on medication is a must since you can't totally reason yourself out of feeling anxious. However, being consciously aware of what I'm dealing with does help me modify my reaction to it. Years ago I would flip out, whereas nowadays I'm a lot better at pretending to be calm even when I'm not. I had a lot of people get angry with me for my behavior, but I wasn't acting that way out of some evil intent, obviously. Even though I realize they didn't know what was causing me to act so hyper and stressed, some of those people could have given me more of the benefit of the doubt. In fact, I tend to get really angry when I realize that I'm dealing with the type of person who don't give others the benefit of the doubt. Of course, they expect others to give them the benefit of the doubt!
I haven't seen Cuckoo's Nest since the last 70s or early 80s. I do have a funny Ken Kesey story for you. He came to Indiana State in the 94-95 school year. This professor in the history department was his host and arranged the whole visit and talk. The professor came back from Kesey's hotel room just totally STONED out of his mind. A fellow grad student told us how he saw the professor attempting to pull off a sticker from the dept door. He kept fumbling with it, looking at it with a totally blank expression.
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Gah! Before I got on medication for my anxiety, any sort of stress really messed with me. Not only did it not help that I was not medicated, but also I didn't have the awareness of what clinical anxiety was or how it affected me. On one hand, I realize that being on medication is a must since you can't totally reason yourself out of feeling anxious. However, being consciously aware of what I'm dealing with does help me modify my reaction to it. Years ago I would flip out, whereas nowadays I'm a lot better at pretending to be calm even when I'm not. I had a lot of people get angry with me for my behavior, but I wasn't acting that way out of some evil intent, obviously. Even though I realize they didn't know what was causing me to act so hyper and stressed, some of those people could have given me more of the benefit of the doubt. In fact, I tend to get really angry when I realize that I'm dealing with the type of person who don't give others the benefit of the doubt. Of course, they expect others to give them the benefit of the doubt!
I haven't seen Cuckoo's Nest since the last 70s or early 80s. I do have a funny Ken Kesey story for you. He came to Indiana State in the 94-95 school year. This professor in the history department was his host and arranged the whole visit and talk. The professor came back from Kesey's hotel room just totally STONED out of his mind. A fellow grad student told us how he saw the professor attempting to pull off a sticker from the dept door. He kept fumbling with it, looking at it with a totally blank expression.