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I know...but...

I don't think I've felt a single discernable emotion in about four days.

It is, it would seem, possible to be too evened out.

If I could feel hate, I'd hate these stupid pills.
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[personal profile] groovesinorbit 2007-06-04 01:40 am (UTC)(link)
Nope, that doesn't sound fun at all. Which pills are these, if you don't mind me asking? I hope you get them straightened out.

[identity profile] wednes.livejournal.com 2007-06-04 02:01 am (UTC)(link)
I normally just take Lamictal, but now they've added and then raised the dosage of the Abilify.

I'm just not feeling like myself, and can't remember the last time I laughed at something.

[identity profile] liadra.livejournal.com 2007-06-04 02:06 am (UTC)(link)
I hate that numb feeling. Sometimes, though, it's depression as much as the medication. Damned if you do. Damned if you don't. Hates us our pills, we do, but they're a necessary (alas) evil.

[identity profile] wednes.livejournal.com 2007-06-04 02:13 am (UTC)(link)
Indeed. I do know that things are much worse when I decide to stop taking my meds. I've tried that a few times and it's never gone well. ;-/

[identity profile] liadra.livejournal.com 2007-06-04 02:19 am (UTC)(link)
I've gone off my anti-depressants before but I always end up back on them. The worst part is that I end up doing/being things that aren't me and I don't notice. I come out of my highs and lows and it's like some other person did those things. (hence the BP diagnosis, well, one of the reasons for it). I'm hoping my disability continues because I can't afford my medications otherwise!

[identity profile] wednes.livejournal.com 2007-06-04 03:13 am (UTC)(link)
I know that feeling as well. I'm on disability and the disability specialist can't seem to find me a job. Then he complains because I'm still on disability and I'm like "Well then, smart guy, find me a job!"

On and on it goes...

But yeah, I don't like feeling like a slave to pills.

[identity profile] nate101000.livejournal.com 2007-06-04 01:02 pm (UTC)(link)
WOW! I need to get me some of those!
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[personal profile] groovesinorbit 2007-06-04 01:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Ugh. That does suck. And it sucks that drs have to tinker with your prescriptions like that. It seems as much an art as a science. Wouldn't it be nice if they could feed your brain numbers into a computer and come out with the perfect dose?

Hang in there.

[identity profile] nate101000.livejournal.com 2007-06-04 06:26 pm (UTC)(link)
I very clearly recall you laughing at me Saturday night.

[identity profile] wednes.livejournal.com 2007-06-04 07:29 pm (UTC)(link)
It'll be fine. I just have to wait it out, like always. It's just that in the mean time, I have a life.

[identity profile] wednes.livejournal.com 2007-06-04 07:32 pm (UTC)(link)
To be fair, I was mocking you. But that's not the same as a genuine laugh.

[identity profile] kissdbyagnome.livejournal.com 2007-06-04 11:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Yikes! However, give yourself some credit, planning a wedding is a lot of work!!! AND you are doing it without the help of your family (though I know you've made your friends your family which is cool because you get to pick your friends:) I was over emotional during my wedding planning, and you are trying to deal with that and adjust your meds. I hope you can find some relief!
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[personal profile] groovesinorbit 2007-06-05 01:51 am (UTC)(link)
Indeed. I hope you don't have to wait for long.
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