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Crying into my goddamn drink...
I am really not one to advocate drinking to feel better about problems. But I must say that I see no other option at this precise moment. I'm going to watch some more of American Psycho and smoke some Salvia Divinorum, but I will continue weeping openly and alone into my coke and SoCo until I figure out why some people turn out to be spineless back-stabbing jerk-offs.
I am so angry at this person (and will not be mentioning any names, because its someone from work) whom until last night, I greatly respected. My error, of course, was in having such respect for a person I knew so little about. It's like that syndrome where you assume that your favorite musician or actor would be cool as hell to hang out with, even though you really don't know them. And now I feel like I've been slapped in the face, publicly...and without warning or explanation.
While I am damn mad, I am also quite sad about the whole thing. The situation itself is bad enough, but it has been handled with incredible thoughtlessness and without regard to several of us MadStoners who if I may say so, work very hard and very competently. Where do people think they get off treating hardworking staff with utter disregard? And if circumstances decree that something bad has to happen, people should be spoken to privately and not taken off guard in front of the whole rest of the staff.
You know, if a friend came to me and told me that someone she trusted had just stabbed her in the back, I would tell her that their treachery was not her fault. That it is always good to trust people (until/unless you have reason not to), and bad if they break your trust. Trust is a good thing, and only losery types fuck it up.
Knowing all that, however, does not make me feel like any less of a complete tool. I have been disrespected, and my work disregarded for reasons that no one seems to be able to divulge. For the record, this person is welcome to bite my shiny, metal ass! It is, however, still very sad.
I am so angry at this person (and will not be mentioning any names, because its someone from work) whom until last night, I greatly respected. My error, of course, was in having such respect for a person I knew so little about. It's like that syndrome where you assume that your favorite musician or actor would be cool as hell to hang out with, even though you really don't know them. And now I feel like I've been slapped in the face, publicly...and without warning or explanation.
While I am damn mad, I am also quite sad about the whole thing. The situation itself is bad enough, but it has been handled with incredible thoughtlessness and without regard to several of us MadStoners who if I may say so, work very hard and very competently. Where do people think they get off treating hardworking staff with utter disregard? And if circumstances decree that something bad has to happen, people should be spoken to privately and not taken off guard in front of the whole rest of the staff.
You know, if a friend came to me and told me that someone she trusted had just stabbed her in the back, I would tell her that their treachery was not her fault. That it is always good to trust people (until/unless you have reason not to), and bad if they break your trust. Trust is a good thing, and only losery types fuck it up.
Knowing all that, however, does not make me feel like any less of a complete tool. I have been disrespected, and my work disregarded for reasons that no one seems to be able to divulge. For the record, this person is welcome to bite my shiny, metal ass! It is, however, still very sad.
That sucks
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I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling so low. I've had a few experiences of my own lately with trusting people and having it blow up in your ace - I'm know it must hurt terribly, especially with it involving work, since that can be a lot harder to avoid.
Just remember, what goes around comes around... maybe not a lot of comfort at the moment, but it's better than nothing, eh?
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That and my firey rage... ;)
Re: That sucks
And sadly, he no longer is.
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